here you have it

randomities

if i'm lucky, when i get out of bed in the morning, the furnace is on and blowing sweet sweet warm air right onto my hypothermic toes. if i'm really lucky, the furnace has been on for a few minutes and has made a warm little spot of toastiness right there on the hard wood floor. if i had/used slippers, i know right where i would keep them.

some people make friends everywhere they go. most of the time i like to stay anonymous. i like to expirament with my hair, but it makes me somewhat of a spectacle at work. i like to be unique, but i don't think i like all of the attention that comes with it. why are unique professionals such a novelty?

at the airport: men in business suits. men in business suits. men in business suits. why? is making 100 grand a year really worth being a cookie cutter rung in an endless ladder and all of that other stuff that makes your hair turn gray and fall out all before your oldest son joins his first fraternity?

i think the world is going to end.

or maybe i'm just beginning the transition to the next stage of my life.

"we never see things changing
we only see them ending"
~ani difranco

extra special thanks to ani difranco for that whatever it is right when i needed it.

i think i finally just realized why i never sit still all by myself.

out of state, out of mind

just a few hours ago, i returned to my cozy madison home from a week in pennsylvania with abby's family. accomplishments:
~went shopping
~attended holiday parties
~met lots of people
~ate almost a ton of holiday sugary snacks
~made the most beautiful gingerbread house i've ever seen
~went skiing (for the first time since i was 12)
~went to a solstice party, complete with the most awesome bonfire i've ever seen
~went to church
~spent lots of quality time with my partner/favorite-person-in-the-world

the crappy part of the week all happened in one day:
~motion sickness on the way to the airport
~rescued old man who fell backwards down an escalator and rather gruseomely dislocated three fingers
~hour and a half delay at layover due to overbooked flights
~o'hare lost my checked bag, which contained my coat and my house key
~i am stupid for putting my house key in my checked bag
~united airlines has crappy crappy crappy customer service, and i hate voice recognition 800 numbers
~i miss abby already, and she's going to be gone until the 28th :(

all in all, it was a great trip. time for some warm food and a place to rest my head. and music, oh for the love of music that's not about jesus....

speaking of apartments...

as abby writes about her apartment being empty, i feel the need to write about how full mine has gotten. when molly and i moved in here, we had both come from our own efficiencies. we had each spent two years in our own teeny sanctuaries, our only perfectly ours spaces in the world. we came into half of a house. a beautiful house, all sunlight, wood floors and soothingly colored walls. it took us a while to feel like there was more living going on here than simply the filling of space. a few wallhangings, a holiday dinner, some poker parties, and a christmas tree later, this place is finally starting to feel like a home and not just a space. with the recent addition of abby's life and trinkets, this place has taken on a whole new life. it will probably take us and our stuff some time to settle and to find a place, but it's the coziest thing i could ever hope for as i watch the snow clouds start to move in for the winter.

as far as winter goes, i hate cold. cold makes me cranky. cold makes my joints ache. wind just makes it worse. to me, winter is for cuddling on the couch, tea and warm treats. winter is for sewing projects and those books i always meant to read. television entertainment. this winter, however, i am going to try some outdoor sports. the ones that keep you moving, and you get to wear cool waterproof pants. if only i could find some good, warm, non-leather, waterproof boots to go mucking about in.

currently contemplating: an urgency to explore the world before the bush empire destroys it. and to eat the rest of that pie that's in the fridge...

back by popular demand

it's almost noon and i've just rolled my ass out of bed, hungover and bar stinky. i've just showered and drug myself to the kitchen to find something to eat that won't make my stomach hate me. what's this? poker chips... 4 half empty bottles of liquor... dishes... where did all this stuff come from? that's right, last night was lesbian poker night, part 2. wow. i continue to be amazed by the number of people i can fit around the dining room table at one time. unfortunately, we forgot to take pictures, but rest assured that a good time was had by all. especially janelle, who won. again. so since none of us had any chips left, and we were already pretty tipsy, we decided that we'd had enough of poker and headed to the club.

i really don't want to offend anyone, but i noticed something last night, and it bugs the hell out of me. half of the people at the club (the *only* lgbt dance club in madison) were straight. that's not what bugs me. if straight people prefer to go to a gay club to dance, because we all know that it is impossible for a woman to go to a straight dance club without getting groped, that's fine with me. the more the merrier. what is not ok is that while straight people are enjoying the hell out of gay clubs, THEY ARE ALSO VOTING TO PROHIBIT LGBT PEOPLE FROM ENJOYING THE RIGHTS OF MARRIAGE. if i owned a gay dance club and i prohibited straight people from entering, i would be called a bigot. BUT SOMEHOW IT'S OK FOR STATE GOVERNMENTS TO DENY LGBT PEOPLE THE SAME FUNDAMENTAL MARRIAGE RIGHTS AS EVERYONE ELSE. that's not discrimination? what the hell do straight people have to lose by letting two people who LOVE eachother get married? WHAT DIFFERENCE DOES IT MAKE TO YOU???? WE'RE IN LOVE! BE HAPPY FOR US! my life is not all showtunes and interior design, like they make it look on tv. it's hard enough to be a lesbian without the government holding my civil rights on a string just out of my reach.

it pisses me off that tv shows like 'will and grace' and 'queer eye for the straight guy' are trendy money makers for their networks, and still 11 state referendums in last november's election passed bills to amend their state constitutions to effectively stop any laws making marriage or civil unions available to lesbian and gay couples.

i get a feeling that this country is slipping into some kind of misinformed and undereducated state of fear and intolerance. i guess fear does control the masses, and fear is probably the only thing the bush administration does well.

music: random itunes, and the kid downstairs practicing his recorder. again.